In 2012, 19 years
after being diagnosed with a brain tumour, I was told that there was no longer
any evidence in my brain of any form of tumour or malignancy. I have undergone
12 lots of neurosurgery and radiotherapy in my 19 years with the tumour. As a
result of the surgeries there is large amount of scar tissue in my brain. At
the appointment my oncologist told me the good and bad news. Even though I
could celebrate that the death threat had been removed from my life, my ongoing
reality of constant pain and headaches would remain. So it was bittersweet news.
Along with medication
I found several non-medicinal ways to relieve my pain in exercise and also in
singing. However, as soon as I stopped these activities the reality of the pain
kicked back in with force.
In 2013 a friend of
mine, who had battled with CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) for over a decade, told
me of a course (for lack of a better word) called ‘The Lightning Process’ that
she had done that had completely turned her life around. She went from only
being able to walk the distance of her driveway, to tramping every weekend,
going on challenging tramps through the holidays, and then eventually doing a
tour of Europe by foot. My friend strongly encouraged me to do the course to
see if it could work for me. However, in my mind I saw CFS and what I had as
very different things. My pain was as a result of things going wrong after so
many lots of neurosurgery, and having so much scar tissue in the brain. How
could this be reversed? However, I took the 20 hour introduction audio book on
holiday with me and listened to it and hope was stirred within me. I became so inspired to do the course and
learn the process and applied for it. Excitedly I had the interview, however
due to my complete lack of belief in my memory, and being able to retain
anything, I was turned down and told that I needed to try and improve my memory
and increase my faith in it. I couldn’t
think of how I could possibly improve my memory. It sounded so easy but
seriously, how can you just do that?
A few weeks after
having been turned down from the course I heard about a brain training website
called ‘Lumosity’. This site was designed by neuroscientists and, after sitting
lengthy tests, a program was custom designed to work on my problem areas. Being
signed up to the program I was given five games (different every day), that
varied from being 45 seconds to a minute to play each day. They dealt with the
different parts of the memory, attention span, information processing, how I
responded to distractions, vocabulary proficiency, spatial orientation, verbal
fluency, and problem solving. It was extremely
challenging but I diligently worked on this training seven days a week for
eight months and was astounded and delighted that in that time my scores on all
of the ‘games’ at least doubled! It was the first time that I began to see that
I could actually change my brain’s function through training it. This news got
to the trainer of The Lightning Process and she let me know that I was welcome
to reapply for the course. However, there was one major component missing. It
was suggested that you could take a support person and I didn’t have anybody
suitable. Then, in January 2015 I met an amazing man who is extremely interested in
personal growth who was very keen to attend the 3 day course with me as my
support person.
In June 2015 we attended
the 3 day course and it was absolutely astounding. For the 5 years before attending
the course I had used a pre-frozen cold pack behind my back during all of my
waking hours for pain relief, as well as behind my back in bed during the
summer. Daniel, my support person, suggested on the 1st night after
doing the course that I try going without it the next day. Just the thought of
this I found unnerving. However, using the process I was able to get through
that day, and every day since, without it.
Another thing that I
had been using 24/7 since 2010 was wearing a cooling head patch on my forehead.
This patch switched the burning sensation that I experienced with
all of my pain and headaches to a cooling sensation. They were an absolute godsend
when I had found them, but at the same time led to stares and questions from
strangers when I was least feeling like answering. They were also hard on the
skin of my forehead. I decided on the 2nd night of the course to see
if I could go without them the next day by using applying the process that I
had learned. To my astonishment I was able to. I haven’t used one since the 2nd
day of ‘The Lightning Process’ course.
Before attending ‘The
Lightning Process’ I was unable to walk more than about 100 metres before
intense pain came into my legs and it became too difficult. I had lived with
leg pain since 2009 and as a result I had only exercised on an elliptical
cross-trainer. I had stopped going for walks as it was just too painful. In the
days that followed doing the course I was able to increase my walking to about
2km. Then in the following weeks I got that up to 4 km. In August I competed in
a 5km athletic event. It was just mind blowing to me that I was now able to
easily walk this distance. Then in October I entered my second 5km event and won it!!! I just couldn’t believe that I
was now not only able to walk 5km, but was actually able to compete against and
beat ‘normal’ people in races! In November that year I did my first 10km event.
This was at a running festival through an absolutely incredible course. I was competing against runners and didn’t stand
a chance of winning. However, it was absolutely stunning and so thrilling to be
out and experiencing the natural beauty of New Zealand.
For the 15 years before
doing ‘The Lightning Process’, when I had clear vision, I could only drive a
maximum of 5 minutes. This was a lot to do with my concentration levels, but more
my ability to sit with my arms directly in front of me without the most intense
pain. However, now just over one year on from doing The L.P. I can freely drive
myself into Auckland (an hour’s drive in traffic) and can traverse from one
side of the city to another. I could never have even dreamed of doing this before
doing the L.P.
There can be no doubt
that The Lightning Process has given me a second chance at life. My life had so
many limitations for the 15 years before doing The Lightning Process but now I
feel as though a whole new world is ahead of me. In this blog I look forward to
sharing both my feelings and experiences in this incredible new journey.
If you're interested in reading more about 'The Lightning Process' you can do so through NZ's two trainer's websites:
http://www.empowertherapies.co.nz/
http://www.monarchlife.co.nz/
The brain-training website I continue to consistently work on is https://www.lumosity.com.
If you're interested in reading more about 'The Lightning Process' you can do so through NZ's two trainer's websites:
http://www.empowertherapies.co.nz/
http://www.monarchlife.co.nz/
The brain-training website I continue to consistently work on is https://www.lumosity.com.